Have mentioned what I find as the necessary evil in the world? Money. Plain and simple, it how we measure ourselves with others, it is why we work and it why we find ourselves often unhappy with what we have. I am personally faced with trying to continue with the income level I was at before I was let go from HC, at the same time I need to spend time with my incredible wife. I say I need, because I find absolute happiness with her. This morning we drove downtown to drop her off for the Light Rail, we didn't speak much, but I was just happy to be sitting next to her for a few more minutes than if she left on the bus from outside our home.
When I came home last night, she fell asleep on me while I watched my replay of the TDF, which is what I look forward to every summer. I don't ride a road bike, I don't visit other races, I just love the Tour de France. Anyway, a few times she said she was going to bed, but really she was going to sit there curled up in a ball waiting for me to go to bed. As you can see, a real need to spend time with my wife. We do things like this often, and I will find myself doing the same thing when she wants to watch a movie and I don't have an interest in it, but I just want to be next to my wife.
Unfortunately, money drives situations like this more and more in families. I grew up knowing we worked hard and rested after all the work was done, which it never felt like it. I try to have the same ethic, but I'm no energizer bunny like my dad, so I run down pretty quickly. I seemed to have brought this into my family, and I think it is okay for now, but there will be a line ee will draw when it comes to work and time best spent with my wife.
It is important to understand that God loves to see us in fellowship with one another. Similarly, as parents do when their children are getting along with one another. I am still trying to wrap my mind around the latter, but some day I'll get it. It is righteous for us to make sure the needs of our family are met, but what is meeting a physical need if emotionally or worse spiritually we are rotting out? The need to spend time with my wife, will baffle me, but I will cherish every second I have to be with her.
